Christmas Eve.
Dec. 25th, 2011 12:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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outforbloodinvegas | bubblegumprincess
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|wolvesinthewalls | and Harvey.
I've come to the conclusion that the thing that I need to do specifically to fixlastmanstanding (and by extension LJ Hoffman.) is get some new blood/fresh CR.
That's not to discount old CR or any other past friends but Hoffman needs...He needs a relationship that's going to keep him from focusing on John Kramer, or Sarah Harding, or any of the other people he's fixated on. That's not to say that he doesn't have friends-he does-but he needs somebody in his life to like...be able to count on them.
I mean let's be honest, Kay is going to leave. As are everyone else and Hoffman...Hoffman is rehabilitated but he's going to need reminding. He needs somebody who he can talk to and someone who will accept him and who he is. Ultimately (as fun as it was) Hoffman and Sarah wouldn't have worked since it was based on a physical attraction.
I hate admitting this to myself, but Hoffman needs a ship. I hate admitting this because everytime somebody admits that they needs a ship they come off sounding like one of those people on![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
sixwordstories who are...all about shipping. I'm not asking for much-the man needs to date-but like-someone who will look him in the eye and go "You are a horrible person because of what you did-but I can find it in my heart to forgive you because I care about you for you." would...go a long way to making sure Hoffman didn't re-offend.
That's fine, I can work around this if nothing happens (and given my luck lately nothing will happen) but it'll go like this. Hoffman will go back to the city, become a cop, live for the job to the point where a case will come along and he'll be married to it with no other support structure besides other cops and he'll either re-offend (...honestly unlikely. Possible but unlikely) Drink and rot his liver that way (He doesn't have the same training as MIB guys. It's harder for him to turn his emotions off.) or eat his gun.
That...I can't live with that. I don't know what I'm expecting but it's not that. The only other option is that he becomes a vampire. That could open new possibilities, but I'm still not sure that it's the best course.
Yeah I know what you're thinking "Well why don't you do like you wanted to and write him back to the day he and Alison Kerry broke up with each other so that he can say "yes, i will support you no matter what I know about the fuck-up we both committed I'm sorry"
Or well you're not thinking that because you're not mind readers. Here's the thing-I'm an emotional douchebag who doesn't have the testicular fortitude to write my puppet the happy ending I want for him without help because it doesn't feel real to me and I'm needy. Deal. However that is an option.
I just have to learn how to be patient.
Tomorrow we're getting up fucking early, opening gifts, and I'm going back to sleep while April runs to work. Then when she gets back (after some meeting with her family privately) we're going to see Sherlock Holmes and spend the evening movie-hopping.
I'm excited.
outforbloodinvegas | bubblegumprincess Posted for -
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wolvesinthewalls | and Harvey.I've come to the conclusion that the thing that I need to do specifically to fix
lastmanstanding (and by extension LJ Hoffman.) is get some new blood/fresh CR. That's not to discount old CR or any other past friends but Hoffman needs...He needs a relationship that's going to keep him from focusing on John Kramer, or Sarah Harding, or any of the other people he's fixated on. That's not to say that he doesn't have friends-he does-but he needs somebody in his life to like...be able to count on them.
I mean let's be honest, Kay is going to leave. As are everyone else and Hoffman...Hoffman is rehabilitated but he's going to need reminding. He needs somebody who he can talk to and someone who will accept him and who he is. Ultimately (as fun as it was) Hoffman and Sarah wouldn't have worked since it was based on a physical attraction.
I hate admitting this to myself, but Hoffman needs a ship. I hate admitting this because everytime somebody admits that they needs a ship they come off sounding like one of those people on
sixwordstories who are...all about shipping. I'm not asking for much-the man needs to date-but like-someone who will look him in the eye and go "You are a horrible person because of what you did-but I can find it in my heart to forgive you because I care about you for you." would...go a long way to making sure Hoffman didn't re-offend. That's fine, I can work around this if nothing happens (and given my luck lately nothing will happen) but it'll go like this. Hoffman will go back to the city, become a cop, live for the job to the point where a case will come along and he'll be married to it with no other support structure besides other cops and he'll either re-offend (...honestly unlikely. Possible but unlikely) Drink and rot his liver that way (He doesn't have the same training as MIB guys. It's harder for him to turn his emotions off.) or eat his gun.
That...I can't live with that. I don't know what I'm expecting but it's not that. The only other option is that he becomes a vampire. That could open new possibilities, but I'm still not sure that it's the best course.
Yeah I know what you're thinking "Well why don't you do like you wanted to and write him back to the day he and Alison Kerry broke up with each other so that he can say "yes, i will support you no matter what I know about the fuck-up we both committed I'm sorry"
Or well you're not thinking that because you're not mind readers. Here's the thing-I'm an emotional douchebag who doesn't have the testicular fortitude to write my puppet the happy ending I want for him without help because it doesn't feel real to me and I'm needy. Deal. However that is an option.
I just have to learn how to be patient.
Tomorrow we're getting up fucking early, opening gifts, and I'm going back to sleep while April runs to work. Then when she gets back (after some meeting with her family privately) we're going to see Sherlock Holmes and spend the evening movie-hopping.
I'm excited.
